Strange dream with parts of it staying with me this morning which is unusual so I thought I’d do a little exploring.
In the dream I was at some fancy place and my partner, and we each had what looked like shots of hot chocolate then we were charged $600 for them and we hadn’t even drunk the whole thing. I was totally, shocked, indignant and angry and resentful so I decided to go into the feelings to see what might be there.
Here’s what I journaled:
‘Could this be a reflection of how ‘expensive’ I believe life has been? The ’price’ I’ve paid to be here was more than I expected? Is this another reason it is hard to surrender? Believing I’ve received so little for so much? It’s possible of course. There’s something here I do not understand because I’ve gotten caught up in the anger and shock. This s a very fancy occasion, only the privileged few can afford to be here. There is much luxury and elegance. I’m focussed on the wrong thing, forgetting I wanted to be here, and it is an honour. The money doesn’t seem to be a problem except for the problem I’m making it.
Let go, look around, appreciate the beauty and abundance. Surrender to the experience and don’t waste what you’ve got… The larger context is needed in order to see the truth and let go of the resentment. I am so blessed to be here the price is irrelevant. I am an abundant being in the flow of life. This reminds me of how many times I’ve gotten stuck in resentment and been stingy with what I have to give, be it money, or love or attention. The opulence is pretty awesome, but I have to lift up my eyes to see and appreciate it.
Surrender to the experience whatever that may be. Leave preconceptions at the door. No price is too high for life and love and truth. The real price is in not enjoying and appreciating and participating fully in life. That is expensive indeed!’
I just never know where these explorations will take me. My experience was completely transformed as I kept writing. I love this process!
Namaste
