It’s been awhile. There’s so much going on and there isn’t much going on, all at the same time. Life and all its paradoxes.
The work continues, as Philip Stutz says so well in the documentary by Jonah Hill called “Stutz” on Netflix, there are three realities we all must face, pain, uncertainty and constant work. (By the way, I highly recommend the movie, it’s full of wisdom.) Three things most of us tend to resist yet when you think about it for just a moment you realize, yes indeed those are part of our reality in these human forms so why fight it? Because we’re human! And the paradoxes continue.
I just want to share one realization that has created quite a shift in me in this past month or so. It’s about not enoughness, you know, I’m not enough, there isn’t enough, I’m not good enough, etc. When I stopped resisting that idea and sat with it for a bit it dawned on me that instead of trying to convince myself that wasn’t true, which is mostly what I’ve done with it, accepting it as part of the human condition is actually a gift! Wow, what an idea! Yes, a gift, because when I let myself be present to that feeling when it arises, I now see it as a portal, a gateway to enter into that sweet silent place of prayer and contemplation where I am open, where all enoughness lies, the Divine, the Kingdom of God.
I don’t have all the answers, not even a tiny fraction of the answers to life’s questions but there is a place within the silent spaces where answers arise when summoned through my questions and my receptivity and my willingness to ponder.
Answers and awareness may not always come right away but without fail, when I let go and trust God there is always a response, even if it isn’t what I thought it would be. Such an expansive and peace-filled place to go and it’s always there just waiting for us.
Namaste
