I can’t remember if I’ve talked about it here or just with my Spiritual Director the other day, but I have had a lifelong resistance to time. May sound strange but there you have it. She had suggested I write about it using my non dominant hand, so I did and made some interesting connections between time, beliefs around not enoughness and that things won’t work out anyway. All connected at the core giving me a somewhat stressful relationship with time over the years. Of course, that has come and gone over and over as these things do but I really have had enough of this seesaw relationship, so I have been more than willing to let go and surrender.
This morning in my journaling I came to a whole new understanding and feeling around time and the other challenges I tend to deal with on a regular basis. I’ve come to realize my life isn’t about survival of this body or even our species. It’s about making the shift to Infinite Being where time does not even exist rather than on the human perspective… It’s a big shift for sure, one that has been going on for some time now yet there’s a new sense of importance around it.
So much of our focus is on this physical body and personality. It’s so compelling because it is often very ‘loud’ and insistent. But it is time for me to let that go and to surrender to the Infinite instead of trying to manage the symptoms of humanness. Surrendering to the Truth is the only way for me to go now given the commitments I have made and the guidance I have received. The old paradigm has run its course; now I am here to consciously transcend the fears that keep us playing the old survival game. We’re not all here to do that at this point, we all have our own journey, our own timing but for me, it’s time to let go of what has been keeping me preoccupied. It’s time to Be. Time to focus my attention on the Truth of our Infinite Being, our Divine Potential, instead of being caught up in the details that tend to distract me.
Tall order and I know this will bring up even more of the all the old stuff to let go as I go along, but it will undoubtedly continue to be interesting. There’s nothing like being committed though, and I am.
Namaste
