To be honest I did not fully appreciate how important it was to set a clear goal or intention for healing until very recently.
Over the years I developed some allergies and intolerances that kind of snuck up on me. I didn’t have them growing up or for the better part of my life but in the last few year they’ve just kept getting worse.
Of course we have lots of treatments for the symptoms but that’s not what I want, I am committed to uncovering and clearing up the root cause of these physical symptoms which are to be found in the psychological realm.
It has been quite the journey since I made this commitment to myself. I started inquiring as to what these symptoms, these intolerances might represent and I was rewarded with many insights on just how much and how deeply I had rejected many aspects of life and self. I became very aware that even though I’ve been doing healing work on so many of life events and relationships, including with myself, there was still some deeply buried anger and hatred to be found lurking in the darkest of shadows. I have also come to a new level of awareness of just how unsafe I have felt all my life. It isn’t the first time I’ve seen this but I don’t think I ever fully appreciated the depth and breadth of it before, and I’ve been working on this in some form or fashion for the past 30 years!
I’ve learned and healed so much over the years yet I have a new found respect and awe for the complexity and the many disguises we wear to mask some of these deeply held fears, hatreds, thoughts and beliefs. That’s why a whole body/mind/soul commitment to healing is so important. It is only then that we can truly unmask the real issues driving the physical symptoms. Then we can make new choices, not by rejecting what has been, but by integrating, blessing, appreciating why we came up with these ideas in the first place and viewing it all with compassion and with a commitment to wholeness.
My symptoms have subsided and I don’t know yet exactly where this is taking me but I can feel the life energy coursing through me and I have a wonderful sense of anticipation as I continue to explore, integrate and appreciate. I am also setting some new goals that are even more precious to me.
I wonder where life will take me now!
Namaste
